since she turned three months, Sadie has been taken care of by a nanny–but since i work at home, i get to oversee everything. and since i’m pretty much hands-on when it comes to taking care of my kid, the nanny’s work is really just to assist me and look after my daughter when i’m busy working or when i need to attend to something really important.
her last nanny, airene, was the best we ever had (she’s had two nannies prior). she’s a mother of five so we’re lucky because she already know how to deal with a baby. with her, everything was easy–magaan kasama. i didn’t even need to tell her what to do. she knows her wa around the house and she knows how to take care of Sadie, parang second nanay. so it deeply saddened everyone when she left us–i even wrote about it here.
two weeks after airene left, she came back with her replacement–a 16-year-old high school grad. naturally, we were kinda apprehensive because we weren’t sure if she’s capable of taking care of a toddler. true enough, her first week with us was pretty rough. i even thought of immediately finding a replacement. but since it was really hard to get a nanny these days, we decided to keep her, hoping that with proper training, we can turn her into another airene.
while it’s pretty unfair to compare, i couldn’t help it. while airene was really responsible and affectionate, this one was bordering on indifferent. i would catch her intently watching tv while her ward is busy stuffing her mouth with trinkets! i have also prohited her from using her cellphone while she’s watching over Sadie, but she just couldn’t take her hands off her phone!
Sadie’s clothes and stuffed toys, which airene used to keep pristine, all look soiled now. but she’s 16 and she’s new, so i always tell myself to be a little more patient.
then it happened. yesterday, while i was busy working, she took Sadie outside without my consent then came back with Sadie screaming in tears. i asked the nanny what happened. “di ko po alam, ate.” i told her sadie won’t cry unless she got hurt. she maintained that she didn’t know. “gusto lang po kasi magpababa sa kalsada.” i didn’t buy it so i checked on Sadie. she has a deep scratch on her back which was somewhat inflamed, a bruise on her left arm, and a little wound on her right hand’s pinky finger. i went ballistic and raised my voice. she flaked. “BAKA po ate nagasgas malapit sa may gulong ni fletch (our car)…” i couldn’t believe what i heard. BAKA? she wasn’t sure what happened to her ward? i got really mad that i told her she better tell me what really happened or she’s not gonna like what i’m capable of doing. she said, “kasi po ate nagasgas ‘yan po dun sa may gulong kasi ang kulit nya umiiyak nagpapakuha ng bulaklak. inaabot ko po yung bulaklak SIGURO po tumama sya dun.” again, she was pretending to be fucking unsure of what transpired! i told her she must have been using her cellphone and she vehemently denied.
i almost lost it. i was sooooooo itching to fire her but my husband, mr. cool was against it. he scolded her and told her not to take sadie outside unless they’re accompanied by him or her grandparents.
i reprimanded her again today and she seemed remorseful. but i can’t get over it. i don’t know if i can trust her to look after Sadie without somebody else around to keep an eye on her.